****Empowering Women, Inspiring Change****
Dear Grandma,
I usually don't cry. I mean, I will tear and sensitive to some things but otherwise don't. Why am I tearing as I eat a cream cheese and lettuce sandwich?
Why, because I remember as a little girl you'd make it for me. You introduced me to it and said to keep an open mind and I'd like it. You were right. I LOVED it. Then you'd change it up sometimes and put cucumbers instead of lettuce. Funny thing as I got older and tried to duplicate it I'd say "Granny, why can't I ever make them as good as yours"? "That's because I'd use pineapple cream cheese and you use plain", you'd respond. I always disagreed with you on that point (I should know better than that) but only because it was the 70's and the company wasn't creative enough to make the flavour stuff like they do now did they? Besides, I don't really like pineapple too much because I find it too sweet. Hmm...I don't remember the sandwiches tasting sweet.
Anyway, what's the reason for this post? I don't have a valid one. Don't need one. I was just thinking of you and I just wanted to let you know. No matter how busy I was, or wasn't, I used to be able to pick up the phone for no reason at all and say "hi granny, everything's ok...I just wanted to say hi". Then we'd exchange the "I love you's" and "bye" and that's all we needed to get each other through the day. You always told me I was your favourite grand daughter (even though you'd always remind me that you're not supposed to say that as a grand-mother because it'd make the other grandchildren jealous). Regardless, you always reminded me how special I was, how gifted I was, and how much I meant to you as a grand-daughter because I took that second, if only out of my day to call for no reason and say hello....just because I was thinking of you and "because we could".
Well, sadly, you passed away a few years ago and I can't do that anymore....at least in person. So this will have to do..
On behalf of achieving my goal to implement and establish YES I CAN by "Empowering Women, Inspiring Change"...thank you. Thank you for being an example of strength and being a huge part of teaching me the core values that a woman can be a woman, can be a boss, can be a wife, mother and be independent but it doesn't make her b* and it doesn't mean she loves anyone else any less. And it doesn't mean she's sacrificing anything or some radical feminist (though there's nothing wrong with that if you are). And most importantly, if someone thinks of you as a b*, or being selfish then to heck with them because they're not in your shoes, step in your footprints or live your life so they can just mind their own business! (And that's cleaning up what you really would have said because you were very direct and not afraid to say what really was on your mind) ;)
Now, for a woman of your age that grew up in a different time and era, I applaud you. Thank you, thank you, thank you for literally being my second mom. I will always and forever hold the memories I have of you in my heart and so grateful that I was blessed to have you in my life. Thank you also for saving me from that one particular situation where it probably would have cost me my life.
I love you Granny, Dorothy Pearl Parr and proudly display my middle name Pearl and passed onto my daughter for her middle name as well. I love you more than words can ever express. I will not say that I miss you because you are and will always be a part of me. So I'm just calling out to let you know that I'm thinking of you today and just wanted to say hi....
Forever yours,
your grand-daughter,
Shannon Pearl Murree
xo
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